I think this is the start of a beautiful friendship, or friendship(s). In all honesty I’m glad that Rachel transferred to Concord, because for the past few weeks it has felt like Elizah doesn’t come around anymore. I feel like her and Kuya Marck are still in the honeymoon stage of their relationship and have no time for me whatsoever. I’m happy that I can now be with someone at church who will share laughs with me, and make fun of other things I make fun of. Sorta like a boyfriend but no, lmao. Don’t get me wrong, Elizah will always be my BFF/Maid of Honor, it’s just that she’d rather spend time with Kuya Marck than with other people. And in some odd way, I kind of respect that, because I know there will come a day when I’ll be placed in her shoes. Although for now I’m going to enjoy my solo-ism for now (whatever the heck that means).
Also, today Nevin and I spoke face-to-face. Don’t judge me, that’s a start. He barely talks to me period. Like barely texts me, barely anything. I’m barely his friend. We barely have a relationship. Barely. But it’s a start, I just need to keep praying though. God has answered all my prayers so far, why stop just because I got everything I asked for? I’ll continue to pray, because God truly knows the value of my heart and what it is seeking for.
Transferring to Concord has been one of the best decisions in my life. I love every single brethren there, it’s as if I’ve been there for years. Just because we don’t have a chapel, that doesn’t stop them from spreading the love all around. I truly believe that God is always with us when we’re all together. I always feel the warmth in all their smiles and embraces. And today in Antioch my aunt questioned me, “When are you coming back?” I quickly replied, “Never!” I know some people truly miss me, but I never felt the love there. Sorry not sorry. They just never accepted me because I was different, and I’m not talking about my skin color giiiiiirl (ghetto finger snap)! But it’s a big whatever with a capital W.
Friendships, we gain and we lose ‘em. It’s all how you deal with life. God’ll show you who is truly worthy of your companionship. Just trust and pray.